All Good In the Pixie Hood – Love lessons, balance and wisdom

I had a couple of thoughts that came up in conversation an meditation recently that I felt inspired to share.

We learn lessons from the past.
I think it’s natural to be aware of our fears and it’s natural to avoid things that have hurt us in the past. BUT one of the lessons I seem to be getting repeated recently is don’t go too far the other way. Just cos you were in a long term relationship doesn’t mean you have to sleep with everybody, just cos you got hurt doesn’t mean you have to be single forever, or just cos you felt you were over sexual before doesn’t mean you have to be celibate now.
It’s all about balance.

Some of those lessons were about me, but most were observations of how others were reacting to prviopre traumas. We can over-share in order to prevent previous traumas.

My mama always said that when you’re young women want bad boys and by the time they get older they realise they’d prefer nice men. She said it to cheer me up about the girls always going for bad boys which fuelled my later self esteem issues. I think a combination of being too nice, too sweet and too romantic made me less attractive to younger women before. It didn’t help that I had low self esteem and no money! Now my self esteem is higher but still fragile, I’m earning more, and despite being a bit more cynical and aware of my depression and anxiety I think I’m still a nice guy, (we all have our bad moments) and if seems like my mum was right. But I’m not sure what I want now.
I hope that I’m still nice and maintaining balance. From one perspective Balance is a process, never finished. From perhaps a higher perspective balance is a constant, its only our limited perception that sees the need for change.

I wanted to help humanity find balance, now I want to help other sensitive, hero complex having light workers like myself see that balance is always there and if we balance within we will see balance outside.

Everything is okay. “Nothing is wrong, everything is permitted.”
We all walk unique paths. Celibacy, polyamoury, monogamy or label-less  intuitive adapting to how you feel in the moment – its all your own your path to do with as you will. Just try to avoid extremism. (And try to be honest with yourself and others to avoid pain for self or others.)

Everything in moderation, including moderation.

Even if a path leads to death it may lead to a happier reincarnation. Indeed, it’s all good in the hood. At least it’s all good in my pixie-hood.

 

 

 

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Accidental Temporary Polyamoury

Verse 1, the younger woman. She looked so fine to me

we had alot in common, including anxiety.

I didn’t even flirt at first, we quickly became friends.

Would I get with her, well I guess it depends

on if she would get with me, I thought she’d think I was too old

But she’s so lovely I’d like to keep her warm in the cold.

Then one day she mentioned she could do with a lover,

and I submitted my application to play under the cover.

But before we had any sort of intimate relation

I could rely on her for intimate conversation.

I was pretty hooked once I got a taste of her,

despite her age I guess I probably would have dated her.

CHORUS

BUT she said she doesn’t want a relationship

but she didn’t say she didn’t want a taste of it,

At first I didn’t want a polyamorous reality

but I liked her body, face and yes her personality.

BRIDGE

Honestly at first I was looking for monogamy but I probably

won’t mind multiple horny hotties getting hot with me.

I’m still not a player, just attracting the types

who like to defy gender stereotypes.

Verse 2, next was a hot mum who loved words too, superbly cute and hot

I would describe her to you but privacy says stop…

But it turned out we weren’t suited, I was like “nice one, stupid cupid”,

we found out before we even had a chance to knock the boots with,

each other but learned lots about ourselves so time wasn’t useless.

And not the end, I think I’ve got a new friend,

we weren’t suited cos the way we chose to live

meant she wanted more support than I was willing to give

outside a committed relationship

I guess we both have shadows but at least we’re facing it

But she said she didn’t want a relationship

but she didn’t say she didn’t want a taste of it,

CHORUS

BUT she said she doesn’t want a relationship

but she didn’t say she didn’t want a taste of it,

At first I didn’t want a polyamorous reality

but I liked her body, face and yes her personality.

BRIDGE

Honestly at first I was looking for monogamy but I probably

won’t mind multiple horny hotties getting hot with me.

I’m still not a player, just attracting the types

who like to defy gender stereotypes.

Verse 3 one of the hottest goddesses who is honestly even more cosmic

than me, synchronous links, obviously soul family,

i like her personality too. Plus face, body and bum

but these days as cindi lauper once said “girls just wanna have fun….”

You know how it starts casually, but we shared spirituality,

deep conversations, and deep meditations

everything from shooting stars to the setting sun.

I’m still afraid I’ll hurt someone just by loving everyone?

CHORUS

BUT she said she doesn’t want a relationship

but she didn’t say she didn’t want a taste of it,

At first I didn’t want a polyamorous reality

but I liked her body, face and yes her personality.

BRIDGE

Honestly at first I was looking for monogamy but I probably

won’t mind multiple horny hotties getting hot with me.

I’m still not a player, just attracting the types

who like to defy gender stereotypes.

OUTRO

I’m still the guy you can cuddle all night like mates,

I don’t mind whether it’s your arms or your legs ’round my waist,

but we can have one glass of wine and pretend we’re both light weights.

I might still be like “heyyyy, why don’t you sit on my face?”

…and I’m STILL the guy you cuddle all night like mates x

Weird. I wrote this when I was single. I’m not anymore.

Conclusion? Much prefer romance to promiscuity, but glad I got a chance to test that theory.