Accidental Temporary Polyamoury

Verse 1, the younger woman. She looked so fine to me

we had alot in common, including anxiety.

I didn’t even flirt at first, we quickly became friends.

Would I get with her, well I guess it depends

on if she would get with me, I thought she’d think I was too old

But she’s so lovely I’d like to keep her warm in the cold.

Then one day she mentioned she could do with a lover,

and I submitted my application to play under the cover.

But before we had any sort of intimate relation

I could rely on her for intimate conversation.

I was pretty hooked once I got a taste of her,

despite her age I guess I probably would have dated her.

CHORUS

BUT she said she doesn’t want a relationship

but she didn’t say she didn’t want a taste of it,

At first I didn’t want a polyamorous reality

but I liked her body, face and yes her personality.

BRIDGE

Honestly at first I was looking for monogamy but I probably

won’t mind multiple horny hotties getting hot with me.

I’m still not a player, just attracting the types

who like to defy gender stereotypes.

Verse 2, next was a hot mum who loved words too, superbly cute and hot

I would describe her to you but privacy says stop…

But it turned out we weren’t suited, I was like “nice one, stupid cupid”,

we found out before we even had a chance to knock the boots with,

each other but learned lots about ourselves so time wasn’t useless.

And not the end, I think I’ve got a new friend,

we weren’t suited cos the way we chose to live

meant she wanted more support than I was willing to give

outside a committed relationship

I guess we both have shadows but at least we’re facing it

But she said she didn’t want a relationship

but she didn’t say she didn’t want a taste of it,

CHORUS

BUT she said she doesn’t want a relationship

but she didn’t say she didn’t want a taste of it,

At first I didn’t want a polyamorous reality

but I liked her body, face and yes her personality.

BRIDGE

Honestly at first I was looking for monogamy but I probably

won’t mind multiple horny hotties getting hot with me.

I’m still not a player, just attracting the types

who like to defy gender stereotypes.

Verse 3 one of the hottest goddesses who is honestly even more cosmic

than me, synchronous links, obviously soul family,

i like her personality too. Plus face, body and bum

but these days as cindi lauper once said “girls just wanna have fun….”

You know how it starts casually, but we shared spirituality,

deep conversations, and deep meditations

everything from shooting stars to the setting sun.

I’m still afraid I’ll hurt someone just by loving everyone?

CHORUS

BUT she said she doesn’t want a relationship

but she didn’t say she didn’t want a taste of it,

At first I didn’t want a polyamorous reality

but I liked her body, face and yes her personality.

BRIDGE

Honestly at first I was looking for monogamy but I probably

won’t mind multiple horny hotties getting hot with me.

I’m still not a player, just attracting the types

who like to defy gender stereotypes.

OUTRO

I’m still the guy you can cuddle all night like mates,

I don’t mind whether it’s your arms or your legs ’round my waist,

but we can have one glass of wine and pretend we’re both light weights.

I might still be like “heyyyy, why don’t you sit on my face?”

…and I’m STILL the guy you cuddle all night like mates x

Weird. I wrote this when I was single. I’m not anymore.

Conclusion? Much prefer romance to promiscuity, but glad I got a chance to test that theory.

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The Blame Game

Essentially we are power born, it may sometimes feel like we have no control what life throws at us (although some would argue that we attract the mirrors we experience and others would argue that between lifetimes we asked for all the lessons we get – both of those stories just hurt more when life seems painful and unfair), but what we do have control over is how we react to what life throws at us. We can not control how other people will act but we can choose how to react. But that doesn’t mean we should hold back from telling someone how we feel or when they have acted insensitively or selfishly. It just means that we take responsibility for how we act when they do and we take responsibility for how long we put up with it.I am choosing to feel how I feel and I give up the right to try and force that person to admit that they made me feel like that. They didn’t. I allowed myself to feel like that.

Some of my friends simply said I didn’t have a victim complex, I was just a victim. I was a victim of cheating and bullying. But if I was a victim it was still my choice to feel how I felt and it was still my choice to try and make it work rather than walk away. And if I am depressed now that is my choice to react like that. I choose not to, I am not depressed, I am infinite open ended power, as one with universal consciousness we are all born that way and we will be forever. Lesson learned. Forgive others – but don’t deny your anger or sadness. Love yourself – including your ‘dark’ side; your anger and sadness. Don’t run from your shadow, don’t bury your shadow but don’t indulge in it either.

Be compassionate with other people, but be compassionate with yourself.We can only be responsible for ourselves. F the BS, just be for the benefit.

Do I still feel depressed? No. I feel mighty, shining and sexy as fuck. Yeah, that arrogance may be part of my shadow… but I love it :-p Love yourself, including your shadow.

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feeling sexy…

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…feeling surrounded by burlesque babes kinda sexy…

sax n hoop

…feeling happy on my own hula hooping saxophone sexy…

create reality

Co-creating reality…

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Feeling happy co-creating a bikini babes by the waterfall reality… 😉

F the BS and feeling sorry for myself, I opt for co-creating a reality in the sunshine surrounded by nature

(preferably with emotionally evolved rainbow-pixies by a waterfall blessed with abundance and love…)

Some people deserve to share the dream with me.

But some people may no longer deserve my company when I’m feeling mighty, shining and sexy again…

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