How Do We Wake Up

 

 

 

 

“How do we wake up?” My friend asked me this very open ended question. And I gave them a comprehensive answer eventually.

(This is a first draft and subsequent versions will have relevant links to books and videos on each subject.)

First, a bit of advice. I never listen to anyone who thinks they know what everyone should be doing, if they say “this is the only way” I tend to switch off. We are all unique with unique paths so I’m not telling anyone what to do, these are recommendations not demands. Do you.

I don’t want to be a guru. I have issues! Don’t we all? I was obsessed with enlightenment and thought about the subject extremely deeply for years but as I said I have issues, one of them is obsession and another is thinking too deeply! And my friend who asked me the following question certainly doesn’t want me to be their guru. But they asked me “how do we wake up?”

A simple question. But my answer was never going to be simple. It could have been, I could have answered “there is no you and there is no me, so there is no we to wake up”. It could have been “we are all already awake, there is nothing to do and nowhere to go.” But that’s not my style and a bit of a cop out. We can ignore the illusion of reality to give short answers that sound wise but meanwhile you’re still gonna wake up with the illusion of you, me, time and space and we all have to decide how to fill the illusion of time and space (if that’s what they are.)

So I answered as honestly as I could. First I bailed, cos I think too deep and immediately thought of several conflicting answers. Then I decided that was where to begin – there are different types of waking up and there are different ways to to achieve each. Here are a few I’ve discovered and obsessed over, to varying degrees. I obsessed so you don’t have to…

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So different types of waking up – kundalini awakening. Political awareness awakening. Health food awakening. Energy awareness awakening. Fractal multidimensional nature of reality awakening.
All of these types of awakening affect each other, and assist each other.
(Although political awareness can temporarily slow down other types of awakening if it results in depression but I think it’s a necessary step in overall spiritual growth.)
I should add “Shadow work, emotional / psychological awakening” to the list too, it might be the most important one.
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Kundalini awakening can be inspired by tantric sex, kundalini yoga and pranayama yoga. I can recommend a good book on the subject of kundalini tantra, a great video showing a kundalini pranayama technique and/or recommend making love with someone with tantric experiences. <Dry orgasms are relatively frequent for me, but I don’t attend tantra workshops and I’m not in ‘the scene’, find it all a bit creepy to be honest. But I know I shouldn’t judge, just prefer to read books, watch Mantak Chia lectures and practice in private. Growth for me in the non judgment area needed.>

[Best book on Kundalini Tabtra I’ve read – https://www.amazon.co.uk/Bihar-School-of-Yoga-Kundalini/dp/8185787158/ref=mp_s_a_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1537125059&sr=8-3&pi=AC_SX236_SY340_FMwebp_QL65&keywords=kundalini+yoga+swami  ]

Political awareness awakening. This one’s hard cos there’s so much misinformation out there but eventually one should probably realise that most politicians are there for personal gain, most political decisions help the rich get richer and most wars are fought for profit and the reasons they give us are lies. It’s hard for me to view someone as a fully functioning human if they can’t see past the basic matrix of hypocrisy the politicians and mainstream media presents. I know reality is subjective, and it’s all perception (more on that later) and I know we shouldn’t judge. But one of my own areas to grow in is not judging people for believing politicians and newspapers. The lies have seemed so obvious for so long now it’s hard for me not to judge and get angry. I’m getting off the point.
<To what extent political awareness has anything to do with enlightenment in a broader sense is a debate you could have, but I’m inclined to agree with Michael Tsarion and Mark Passio, you cannot be compassionate and aware without sometimes experiencing righteous anger and all forms of government is a form of tyranny with an implied threat of violence>

[Tsarion on politics

Health food awakening. Pretty simple, you are what you eat. So natural and organic is ideal. But life is all about balance so I don’t judge processed food or meat eating, meat is natural and life is suffering but slaughterhouse’s cause unnecessary suffering.

Energy awareness awakening. This is on two levels, knowledge and experience. You can read about quantum physics and I have some good stuff to recommend on the subject. But I would honestly recommend playing with crystals in the bath <with or without shamanic assistance> and chi gung (also spelt Qi Gong which makes it difficult to search for sometimes). Chi gung is like a cross between Tai Chi and yoga and allows you to feel chi in and around your body. It’s basically circular movements and spiral movements with synchronized breathing. I live it and should do it every day but I am undisciplined. I’m working on that tho!

[Best chi gung vid I found online, starts with an explanation and then gives you a beautiful exercise to follow

 

Fractal multidimensional nature of reality awakening. Basically meditation on the nature of reality over time will deal with this one. And a good dose of Terrence Mckenna will deal with this one. I suspect a near death experience would too. I’ve had various glimpses of this breakdown of reality in various ways from Ayahuasca ceremonies to tantric sex dry orgasms. My clearest experience was via plant medicine but it might not have happened if I hadn’t had experiences of awakening in other ways before.

And finally – “Shadow work, emotional / psychological awakening”, as I say, it might be the most important one. This is a complex subject and although it relates to psychology it is in my opinion the most important spiritual work, and maybe the hardest and scariest. Someone can be a tantric master and an a-hole. Someone can be a vegan a-hole. Someone can be a yoga teaching a-hole. We can all be a-holes, I know I can. Shadow work and emotional growth is how to stop being an a-hole! 😂
It’s basically looking at your dark-side, your weaknesses, your fears which are generally rooted in self esteem issues and insecurities we’ve had since childhood. We usually hide these things behind a wall of either anxiety or bravado, either overtly express it with low self esteem and/or hide it behind a front of arrogance. Because when we see our insecurities and self esteem issues we find it hard to love ourselves. And when we hide from these things we defend it, defend the sadness with anger and have arguments with people we love so we don’t have to admit to ourselves how scared we are, scared that we might be lonely, scared that we might not be enough, scared that we might be judged negatively for our weaknesses and scared that those who are being judgmental might be right.
We stop being a-holes to ourselves and to others when we see these shadows, accept these shadows and LOVE OURSELVES ANYWAY. It’s like the EFT tapping techniques, “even though I am insert negative perception here I truly love and accept myself.”
For this work I would recommend Ayahuasca but at the risk of sounding like a normie or a Muggle conventional therapy helped alot, particularly hypnotherapy. And the work of Jamie Catto and Byron Katie. Again, each of these subjects I can recommend videos or books on. This last one I can recommend a Jamie Catto workshop or my hypnotherapist in Bristol, she’s awesome 😊
I have to add the Balanced View teaching, workshops and community to the list of positive influences on my awakening but the way it works cultivates a reliance on the community and the organisation that I am personally uncomfortable with and uncomfortable recommending. I say dip your toe in and use what works for you but some of my best friends are swimming in the deep end of it and seem fine ☺️

[Jamie Catto does workshops all over England, overseas and online in facing creative blocks, shadow work and relationships.

Just check out his website

http://www.jamiecatto.com/workshops/

[Byron Katie and The Work (get to the root causes of your suffering and stop believing the stories you may have told yourself, powerful stuff

http://thework.com/en/do-work

One last thing! Perception and the fractal nature of reality. The paradox of all of this is that if the nature of reality is fractal there will always be more ways to awaken, there will always be another door to go through, each answer leads to more questions. So there is “nowhere to go and nothing to do” as Balanced View might say, we’re all already awake and all is already enlightened and illuminated by our awareness.
Okay, now I’m done.
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With minor edits that’s almost exactly what I sent to my friend. I add for the sake of humility – I don’t meditate every day, I don’t do pranyama every day, I don’t eat strictly organic, and I don’t do Chi Gung every day. If I had as much discipline as I had obsession I would probably be happier, healthier and richer. But I don’t know if I’d be having as much fun.

Bliss plus joy equals now, be love x

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Self Love and Acceptance – LYRICS

SoundCloud link!

The past is the past we ALL have SOME darkness on THAT shelf… I FULLY LOVE AND ACCEPT MYSELF.
LIKE ON THE DANCEFLOOR YOU LOVE AND ACCEPT YOURSELF…
WE FULLY LOVE AND ACCEPT OURSELVES
Even though I may have done things I judged negatively in the past, I fully love and accept myself.
Even though I may have done things others judged in the past, I fully love and accept myself.
There is no I or separation between others and self,
Or between you and destiny of comfort, love and wealth
Even though I may have done things I judged negatively in the past, I fully love and accept myself.
We can visualize going back in time to send love to our inner child
wrapped in fine Linen, whether crying or grinning…
and giving them compassion, we’re willing
To look at my past perceived losses so we’re winning.
We visualised healing any wounds our inner child perceives
Retroactive healing for any unfulfilled needs.
Wishing on a star? Wish on yourself, that’s what you are.
Mother nature made ya perfect just the way you are.
Wishing on a star? Wish on yourself, that’s what you are.
Mother nature made ya perfect just the way you are.
The past is the past we ALL have SOME darkness on THAT shelf… I FULLY LOVE AND ACCEPT MYSELF.
LIKE ON THE DANCEFLOOR  YOU  FULLY LOVE AND ACCEPT YOURSELF
WE FULLY LOVE AND ACCEPT OURSELVES!

 

The black ooze of stress and frustration you squeeze
and stretch out your shoulders is hiding a few of these

Precious gems and crystals. And when those shoulders are less tight They allow the wings to grow out in the precious rainbow light.

You are the best you that you can be.
But hold your inner child now, cos you’re family.

My inner child crying or growling,
A babe crying or a gremlin gnawing and gnashing.

Crying about not feeling heard, listened to or understood, not a word.

I almost forgot being cool was a facade
Always fragile and sensitive, never been hard.

Am I a loser? Am I a self abuser?
Am I failure? Are we all born to fail here?

If you think you are then you are…
So know you’re not, and know you’re hot.

It’s okay to feel guilty, sad, the lot.
Admit it to yourself and you’re bullet proof but shot.

You are the best you that you can be.
But hold your inner child now, cos you’re family.

The past is the past we ALL have SOME darkness on THAT shelf… I FULLY LOVE AND ACCEPT MYSELF.
LIKE ON THE DANCEFLOOR YOU FULLY LOVE AND ACCEPT YOURSELF…
WE FULLY LOVE AND ACCEPT OURSELVES
Even though I may have done things I judged negatively in the past, I fully love and accept myself.
Even though I may have done things others judged in the past, I fully love and accept myself.

My yearly ‘Tax Return Rant’, Living with Toothache, Online Privacy and other recent rants and lyrics!

Tax return. I just did it.

Yeah, it was as accurate as I could make it, but there were estimations. Why? Cos I’m a poet, not an accountant, I hate paperwork and I hate maths so being forced to do both let alone either by a government that spends my taxes on illegal wars upsets me.

Almost tempted to turn down paying gigs from now on so I never have to do another tax return ever. I hate having to estimate how much money I lost trying to change the world in an effort to tell the people I never gave any authority to how much of my money they can spend on schools (yes), hospitals (yes), roads (yes), and bombing brown people for oil.

Still, if I stop performing for money and only earn from the Steiner school I’ll still be getting taxed by the same system. So I’ll still accept paying gigs and I’ll still do tax returns, this is the (fucked up) system I am in. I had a chance to completely escape before but I ironically didn’t have the finances to do it safely and comfortably. One day I will live self sufficient and rely on the pedos in parliament for nothing.

I nearly became a politician last year. Nearly. Still thinking about starting a religion though…

think there’s already a love party in London. I would start a religion and start a political party based on love, community and altruism / benefit for all. Rather than the current economic systems based on competition and ownership rather than sharing. Electoral reform is a must here though, for proportional representation. But all of it’s pointless until enough people are educated in the nature of politics to see why we should change and until enough people are educated in the hierarchical nature of both the culture around science and the culture around religion. Science as a method is fine, but plenty of people use the scientific method to disprove long-held theories and lose their respect, job or tenure because they’ve rattled the cage. Oh my God I could write about why I want to start a political party and why I want to start a religion all Sunday, but I won’t until I actually feel like doing either of those things, this stops now! lol


 

anger is much easier to deal with than sadness, but it won’t really go away until you deal with the roots of the problem. Generally people punch cos it’s easier to punch than cry…

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Ego and awareness

… watch for when the ego is the witness of emotions rather than awareness witnessing the ego witnessing emotions…


Donald Trump and David Cameron

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Context…

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We weren’t harsh, we were gullible pawns of Rupert Murdochs media. The Sun said we can’t elect a man who can’t eat a bacon sandwich and the average person seems to do what The Sun says we should do. The tone of this post does not reflect my anger, frustration or sadness. Humans – do better.

Ps that was back when the choice was between Milliband and Cameron. So bedroom tax, the selling of the NHS and all sorts of fuckry might have been avoided if the Sun hadn’t put that embarrassing photo on the front page the day before the election. People are more easily manipulated than we want to admit, myself included.


Toothache – Loving Life (Despite Intense Physical Pain)

Seriously? Did I really need toothache, abscess and swollen face to show me how happy I was just before? Is that lesson? Don’t worry, I learned the other lesson – don’t eat Haribo (yeah, mother f- you said that in 2007, you an addict.) Gelatine. Sugar. It was never gonna have a happy ending.

Remember when penny sweets were actually sweets a penny each? I still associate that evil stuff with a happy childhood. Ramblings of a poet in self inflicted physical pain, don’t mind me.

Just watched comedian Tracy Morgan talk about his accident and how when you’re in crisis you see who will ride for you. My new friends are true friends, I picked well and the universe through me some good ones on a random too. I’m still grateful, and still happy.

But, before the swings n roundabouts, it’s worth mentioning that last weekend I was happy as I can remember for a very long time. Things have been going well, thankyou universe and thankyou Bristol.

New job, old city, new meditation sessions, poetry workshops, gigs at wholefood shops, positive vibes and cuddles aplenty. Toothache is just a minor chord in a major melody, and I’m writing the score.

More superfoods, more writing, more money, more good health, more self discipline, more loving xx

 


Online Privacy

Does “enable Siri on this Mac” mean “give apple permission to listen to every word I say near my laptop”?

(Questions that make you sound paranoid to ignorant people number 2133).


Lyrics

Sometimes I still use pen and paper… #lyrics

Young man – talk to older women if you want to learn
what to say to girls your age in your world

Wise women prefer good conversation,
(But probably won’t say no to diamonds or pearls.)

The Holy Grail to me was a job that doesn’t depress me.
Pays for the rent… but does’t over-stress me

or was it a Goddess as wise as she’s sexy
to love me, hug me and bless me, and vice versa, Thank you and Yes please!

The Holy Grail was to have both fun and prosperity
Some dreams come true, may I stay healthy n get more wealthy,

not to get on Instagram to take the arrogant selfies
but to help people like when I had nothing good people helped me.

Every little cell in my body is happy and well see
Each cell glowing with love, deep rooted like Elm trees,

Showered in love from the cosmos above us,
To shine light on road for man dem, gal dem, sisters and brothers.

(ps The Holy Grail is still the Moon Cup.)

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Free-Man 

So all that Free-Man stuff, Article 61 of the Magna Carta and the maritime law stuff… Is any of that affected by the fact that the Chilcott Enquiry came to the conclusion that our previous Prime Minister Tony Blair dragged us into a war under false pretenses? Can we conscientiously object to our taxes being spent on illegal wars and point to the Chilcott Enquiry as evidence that our politicians can’t be trusted? Just curious…

…that’s a big if though. But to be honest ‘they’ can usually intimidate me until I stop seeing ‘them’ as ‘they’…

…I was a conscientious objector to Western Imperialism but that didn’t stop the tanks from rolling…

…”Guilty – Giving Up Inspirational Living Towards Yourself” KRS-One’s wife apparently…


“Everything is complete. There are no loose ends of excess or deficit. This completeness, this simple perfection, doesn’t mean that everything is all stitched up according to some master plan. {Though it might.} Rather, it is in the completeness of infinity, in which each moment is infinite. However things are, they will reveal their completion when we cease striving to create something, control something, become something, and simply allow the presence of ourselves within the becoming of the world. This is the essential view of dzogchen, a buddhist approach to spiritual practice and to daily life which is concerned with maintaining a sense of relaxed openness and happy attentive interest. ”
From Simply Being by James Low

Bluebells, Angels, Soundsystems and Mic Cords

She said “most little girls won’t look for a prince, so they won’t find him,
they’re looking for a villain and hope to find a prince inside him,

most grown women learn better and some wise girls know from the start”,
But I don’t play the game of faking villain, life ain’t a game, it’s art.

They don’t wanna hear how I’m like Jesus or Buddha cos I failed,
they wanna hear how I tried but in comparison I paled,

paled like the white depiction of Christ, sometimes I was cold as ice,
aimed for bodhisattva-like compassion, I’m just not that nice.

They don’t wanna hear how I tried to forgive acting like it’s all bless,
like Jesus forgave the men who put the spear in his chest.

They wanna hear the truth, we’re friends now, I wish her the best
but if I think about it now I overstand better but it still gets me vex.

The old man on his bike in the graveyard smiles like there’s a secret we share,
Like we’re two of a chosen few who knew… we’re not really there.

I’m like a bluebell on a grave, like an angel in a rave, you can help me here.
Sometimes I care so much it looks like I don’t really care.

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Sometimes, sure, I’m bored like retired Timelords wondering why your
Average human being even bothers to rhyme for.

While your magical tools like your soundsystems and mic cords
Transport my thoughts to your heart to make you say BRRAP! Or “I’m floored.”

Bluebells on graves… angels in raves,

Letting go for forgiveness, happy to live blessed.

While your magical tools like your soundsystems and mic cords
Transport my thoughts to your heart to make you say BRRAP! Or “I’m floored.”

 

Ice and Lava

Stepping out of the water into the fire
Out of reception of the mystical to share and inspire

all’s one, water flows, fire burns, love will entice.
all is one, liquid fire – lava, solid water – ice.

Stepping out of the water into the fire
Out of reception of the mystical to share and inspire

all’s one, water flows, fire burns, love will entice.
all is one, liquid fire – lava, solid water – ice.

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The dark side isn’t more powerful, just more seductive,
eventually it would consume you, it’s more disruptive.

But accept that’s within you, no need to duck it
or hide from it, your shadow is with you so love it.

It may seem easier to express anger than express sadness.
But repression of depression only leads to madness,

and expression of the lessons leads to big rewards
we’re just concepts with concepts so put down your swords

that barely exist, ignore judgments of people who just do
not care. The people who do care won’t judge you.

Don’t hide fear and sadness behind anger,
These days I tell someone I trust or trust the page and write a banger.

Big picture’s infinite possibilities, why limit your possibilities?
We can’t see the big picture with limited thought but feel it with limitless ease.

Big picture’s infinite possibilities, why limit your possibilities?
We can’t see the big picture with limited thought but feel it with limitless ease.

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What planet-saving inventions will come out tomorrow? Conversations healing our sorrow,
or positive aliens pop round to borrow a lawnmower and finish off braiding your cornrow?

What’ll pop up from the chamber under the Sphinx’s paw?
More treasures than you’ll find on the grill on Chinx’s jaw?

What technology will make our whole lifestyles obsolete?
Prophecy may cause military property to fall at your feet.

When will a billionaire finally watch the Ted Talk “6 ways
Mushrooms can save the world”, and transfer the cash to Paul Stamets?

“This transaction will probably take six days”
and we can sit back and let the fun guy with fungi save this planet.

Some fungi can eat oil slicks AND radiation,
These days I find solutions online instead of cheats for Playstation.

We don’t know… if the next generation
will see borders and nations or pure inspiration,

will see through all the BS and simply not support government
that work for corporations causing just more sufferin’.

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Most mainstream political parties in most 1st world countries
are corrupt from the inside out, but it’s too late to hunt me.

Cos the truth seekers outnumber the greedy, believe me
And one day soon the truth knowers will outnumber the ignorant

and the truth is truth doesn’t exist, it’s subjective,
perspective, the truth is that we’re ALL ignorant

and paradoxically omniscient…
We’d all be omnipotent if we weren’t ALL omnipotent.

How can there be a God unless it’s science, or unless science is nature? Don’t doubt that

includes all the science we’ve not worked out yet and may never work out, yep!

{And that’s each and every one of us. Astrophysicists sum us up.

As star dust, and that’s sun dust. Mainstream dumbs us down? I’ll fun us up. (chill, chill)} (not sure whether to keep this double-time bit or replace it with the half-speed that folllows)

…And that’s each and every one of us…

…Astrophysicists sum us up…

…As star dust, and that’s sun dust…

…Mainstream dumbs us down? I’ll fun us up…

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All is one, that’s what’s up.
Feeling down? Well that’s what’s up

All is one, that’s what’s up.
Feeling down? Well that’s what’s up

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All is one? Liquid fire – lava, solid water – ice.
From icebergs to volcanoes, from Buddha to Christ.

But don’t forget the goddess Mary’s Magdalene and Mary mother,
Don’t forget mother nature, or the goddess lover.

All is one? Liquid fire – lava, solid water – ice.
From icebergs to volcanoes, from Buddha to Christ.

But don’t forget the goddess Mary’s Magdalene and Mary mother,
Don’t forget mother nature, or the goddess lover.

(unfinished.)

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