Bluebells, Angels, Soundsystems and Mic Cords

She said “most little girls won’t look for a prince, so they won’t find him,
they’re looking for a villain and hope to find a prince inside him,

most grown women learn better and some wise girls know from the start”,
But I don’t play the game of faking villain, life ain’t a game, it’s art.

They don’t wanna hear how I’m like Jesus or Buddha cos I failed,
they wanna hear how I tried but in comparison I paled,

paled like the white depiction of Christ, sometimes I was cold as ice,
aimed for bodhisattva-like compassion, I’m just not that nice.

They don’t wanna hear how I tried to forgive acting like it’s all bless,
like Jesus forgave the men who put the spear in his chest.

They wanna hear the truth, we’re friends now, I wish her the best
but if I think about it now I overstand better but it still gets me vex.

The old man on his bike in the graveyard smiles like there’s a secret we share,
Like we’re two of a chosen few who knew… we’re not really there.

I’m like a bluebell on a grave, like an angel in a rave, you can help me here.
Sometimes I care so much it looks like I don’t really care.

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Sometimes, sure, I’m bored like retired Timelords wondering why your
Average human being even bothers to rhyme for.

While your magical tools like your soundsystems and mic cords
Transport my thoughts to your heart to make you say BRRAP! Or “I’m floored.”

Bluebells on graves… angels in raves,

Letting go for forgiveness, happy to live blessed.

While your magical tools like your soundsystems and mic cords
Transport my thoughts to your heart to make you say BRRAP! Or “I’m floored.”

 

The legend Styles P on the suicide of his daughter and the value of life.

Styles P (aka The Ghost), one third of legendary rap group The LOX, lost a daughter to suicide recently. It’s sad but trust, the wisdom he shares on the instagram post is worth reading, so positive and inspiring. He speaks on the true value of life over material things. This is some of realest talk ever…

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“I rarely speak on my personal issues and i usually express my pain the through music but today I will share a little with you last month my wife and I lost a daughter and my son lost a sister. My baby girl took her life and there are no words to describe the day to day pain we have to endure and maintain through but in dealing with pain you find yourself dealing with the creator and asking questions and going through emotions most would not understand. So I’m taking this time out to express a few things to y’all because life is short and we are not promised tomorrow. I like to deal with simple math I know I am 180- 180+ but I’m trying my best to live on the positive side of things. I have truly tried to live up to the code of being a gentleman and gangster to fullest of my ability. I have been chasing the dollar bill since I was 12 years old I hustled I worked legal jobs and even manage to make my dream of making it as a rapper come true I have popped bottles before it was the thing to do, I have owned beamers, benzos, rovers, trucks etc etc etc I have lived in the ritz, owned condos, houses traveled a lot of places etc etc etc but I can honestly tell you don’t none of that shit add up or equal to love!! I have lost my brother, father, aunt, grandmother in law and too many good friends/ brothers and now my daughter!!!! But the only thing that can be done is to leave it in the creators hands. But I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t take this time out to say from the most humbled part of my heart and soul to say to y’all that the dream most of us chase is not!! I repeat is not!! more valuable than the love you get from your family and friends it may seem like it is but it ain’t they print money and make material shit everyday but once you used a loved one that’s it, the spirit is with you but you will miss the physical and won’t be able to speak to them how you want to until you get home to the other side. So I just want to tell y’all keep it family 1st and don’t get lost and lose your focus, the fam is way more important than anything else… We lost a daughter but gained an angel. Love is love. ghost” Styles P

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I have always respected Styles P for his integrity and appreciated his words in his songs. But I have never appreciated his words as much I appreciate the words above. Thank you Styles, RIP to your daughter and my condolences to you and your family.

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The Rock, The Seed and the Rainbow Body

…and when I go I plan to leave behind a circular rainbow with
Shiva surfing tsunamis n Kali juggling flamethrowers,
540 squares the circle, being weird won’t hurt you.
Find the red and blue n between the two now there’s the purple.
Is it attention, affection, or food, clothes and shelter that we need?
From depression to perfection, do we just need to breed and feed?
Compare the contentedness of the rock with the ambition of the seed.
Think about it. Both perfect but what different lives they lead.
So whether I leave behind maggots, rainbows or both in my wake.
Just know I was guided by a feeling my heart and head could not escape.
“Only God can judge me”, but if we’re all God have we wronged?
Guided by my own future judgement of self on deathbed and beyond.
Nothing to do, nowhere to go and categorically nothing wrong with.
No true division between best and worst, shortest, longest, weakest, strongest.
Nothing to do, nowhere to go but absolutely nothing wrong with
It being just my preference to have a lot more to accomplish.

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