Conflicting Emotions, anger, forgiveness and the age old question – Who Am I?

It’s been alot of conflicting emotions recently. Like I want to be honest but I don’t want to hurt anybody’s feelings, I want money but I want free time, I want friends but I don’t feel like socialising, I want empathy for my anxiety but I don’t want to be considered pathetic, I want to […]

This Time Last Year

This time last year I would have described myself as depressed. I’m not now. I’ve not been writing philosophical essays so much recently. Writing in that way for me tends to come out of introspection, often fuelled by depression. I’ve been in a good mood generally recently. I’ve been writing more raps again. It’s easier […]

part 1 The Mother Nature Matrix of Magic (universal consciousness)

An Introduction to a growing idea… There are times to work and times to rest, like seasons, either are fine and neither are to be judged as wrong or right – they just are. Our existence is validatation enough, nature wanted us here now, reality itself wanted us here now, the mother nature matrix wanted […]

Sometimes I’m Selfish and Greedy (but I’m usually a nice guy.)

Sometimes I’m selfish and greedy. This is the trait I dislike in people the most and the trait I dislike in myself the most, and the trait I am most ashamed of. Apparently I’ll have less anxiety and self-esteem issues if I learn to wear my ‘shame’ until I’m no longer ashamed of it. It’s […]