Popularity, Anxiety and ye ol Facebook

Strange times for Mr Sensitive over here. Expect philosophical waffle, it’s been one of those weeks 🙂

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… so you can have a total of 5000 friends on facebook. I ran out of space for new friends so I changed my personal profile into a page. Now I can have infinite likes instead of limited number of friends. Also I thought I’d use the opportunity to streamline my whole online presence to be more professional and less sentimental. This post is both.

The funny thing is the very aspects of my personality that got me too many fb friends were the things that used  that used to get me bullied and eroded my self esteem. Talking passionately about spirituality and politics and philosophy is now the reason I have 5000 contacts. People at school just told me to stop talking.

I don’t know if I’ll feel more comfortable asking people to like my page than asking them to add me as a friend but I guess it’s better than saying “I can’t add you cos I’ve run out of space for new friends”.  I guess I’ll deal with that anxiety when I come to it.

Self esteem issues would come up again later in my life but the seeds of those issues were planted in my youth. I have mixed feelings about my popularity, I’m embarrassed about enjoying it cos I identify more with being an outsider than being one of the ‘cool kids’. But I do enjoy it.

So I already had a separate music page to my personal page. And I was planning to merge this page with my music page. But currently facebook won’t let me. This annoyed me at first but it may be for the best. You see not all of my fb friends were music fans. I suspect most people, especially the strangers, added me cos I passionately and regularly post positive vibrations, inspirational quotes, happy stories etc. And I’m more than a musician, I’m a workshop coordinator, a scholar of subtle energies, a scholar of Hip-Hop culture, a blog writer, a bard of a Druid order and I’m writing a comic book (an amazing artist has already finished pages).

So this page will be more professional and less sentimental than my personal profile was. But I will still be sharing random inspiration that has nothing to do with me personally if and when it feels right, cos I try to do what feels right. So instead of friend suggesting people you think might like my posts, point them over here and I’ll try not to let you down.

Thanks for joining me on this journey, whether you’re a poetry lover, music lover, acoustic music lover, hip-hopper, dub head, raver, comic book fan or star seed rainbow warrior on the bleeding edge of consciousness evolution (or just want to receive positive vibes from inspiring stories and good news – I have plans to make you very happy.

I will find out from my publisher if I may share sneak previews of my comic book, meanwhile I’ll be performing at Wildheart Festival August 28th -31st  this weekend coming, I’ll be performing at Hazy Daze festival (organised by Happy Daze Bristol) from September 11th and I’ll be compering a breakcore and DnB night (with Raiden!) in Bristol on Halloween.

More on all of the above as we go.

I still feel like I’m on a mission (yet paradoxically with nothing to do and nowhere to go) and I still feel grateful for all of you offering emotional support for Mr Sensitive over here on this mission.

I do actually love you guys.

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